Stewardship

Okay, this is my second attempt at this blog. The first attempt ended in my computer malfunctioning, my nearly completed blog deleting, and the hairs on my head vanishing! And since most of this stuff I write is simply off the cuff... it will be a stretch to enter back into profound-mode. Some verbage is sure to be lost along the way, but hopefully I can recall the good stuff.



I'll start with all the Lord has been teaching me, albeit my own stubbornness makes me thick skulled at times.



I am beginning to grasp and feel the weight of responsibility that I have been given as a Steward. I feel as if my eyes are being opened to the big wide world outside of my comfortable American bubble, and to shut them now would be blatantly disobedient. I was disobedient before but I was ignorant in my disobedience. How I thought all of the scripture references to money and stewardship didn't apply to me, is now beyond me and it just goes to show how shallow my relationship was with my Savior. I was content with my designer labels & comfort purchases, not realizing that my life was slowly beginning to look alot more like the standards set by this world. Somehow I seemed to justify in my mind that how I spent my money was disconnected from my relationship with the Lord and the only time the two overlapped was the occasional 10% I'd throw in the offering box to alleviate any feelings of guilt about the other 90%.
With fresh perspective, I watch my fellow Dallasites flock to the mothership (aka: Northpark Mall) on Designer missions, and a sense of anger wells in me. But how can I look with judgement on those that seek the things I did not too long ago? May I look with pity instead, because I know the difference now and by Grace I've been saved from that hamster-wheel of lies that keeps me blinded in narcissism and dulls my senses to the majority that do not live as I do.